SELF: EXAMINED LIFE IS NOT WORTH LIVING.
SELF: I AM NOT IN GOOD SHAPE AND MOOD. SO I NEED TO RUN MORE, HAVE A ROUTINE, AND FOCUSED LIFE. THIS IS THE BEST LIFE I CAN GET. DO IT DELIBERATELY AND PURPOSELY. FORGET ABOUT THE SCHOOL; THERE IS NOTHING THERE FOR YOU. PUT YOUR TIME ON WHAT MATTERS. YOU HAVE ONLY ONE LIFE TO LIVE.
FOCUSED MIND. DISCIPLINE. ACHIEVEMENT MAKES YOU HAPPY.
LEN has to be done.
LEN: I am playing a game, so a thick skin is a must. The issue is not honor or truth, rather, it is survival.
So get over it and get things done.
We have quibble again. This time it is about dowry. She expects 10K. But my parents do not have that amount, and I am very uncomfortable to ask them.
Her way of talking is very provocative. Tried really hard to control my temper and voice. It was not pleasant, but at least it did not escalate to fight.
It is very annoying and exhausting to deal with this kind of quibbles. Is this really the life I want?
BOUGHT THE WEDDING RINGS AT HW. 40K.
FINALLY I COME TO TERMS WITH THE LIFE—-NO MATTER HOW AMBITIONOUS YOU ARE, YOU CANNOT DEFY AGE…